As I’ve said in previous posts, I’m playing a lvl 2 psion in an eberron campaign. The rest of the party is made up of:
1 warforged sorcerer
2 warforged fighters
1 elven fighter 1/cleric 1
1 human favored soul
Me (kalashtar psion)
After our first adventure, we put our party treasure into getting a handful of wands for our cleric and sorcerer so that they can heal more readily. This is tradition among my group. Even at level 10+, we’re known for carrying around wands of cure light wounds to burn up outside of combat in order to preserve our spells for combat situations. I’m totally for that and even for picking up a wand of magic missile for our sorcerer, so she can focus on ‘repair damage’ spells when she needs to.
Last week, we placed an order for some more wands (we have a phenomenal discount on them for a few more days), including a dorje of energy ray for me. But while they were being made, we were forced out of the city. While we are planning on coming back for the wands, this newest adventure will likely last us several levels and I’ll be at least lvl 5 before I came back for my wand. I’m a little disappointed, but I understand it’s the way the cookie crumbles.
What made me superiorly angry was the way one of the other players looked at the situation. He said the one ‘wand’ he wished we had was mine (yeah, me too), because (and I quote) "you have a problem with preserving your spells (read: preserving power points). You’re always the one who runs out first."
To start out, I got defensive. I don't think that's too unexpected. If anyone criticizes the way you play your character, that's probably your first reaction, too. Don't get me wrong, I'll take advice and I know I'm learning how to play this character (no one has ever played a psionic character in this group), but I also knew going into it that conserving power points would be the challenge, and I’ve been careful about that.
It wasn't until I was driving home that night that I got really upset. The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I'm getting judged by people who never /ever/ have to cast a spell. The favored soul is one of those players who prefers to be a front line fighter. If he has to cast a healing spell, he has 2 wands – one cure light wounds and one repair light damage. The sorcerer has 3 wands – cure light wounds, repair light damage and magic missile. I don't think she's cast more than 2 or 3 spells since she got her wands. Our fighter/cleric uses more spells than either of the two of them, and he's only had spells for a single level! He uses his to buff himself up before fighting. And the thing is, I am NOT bitter about all that. I'm totally cool with the sorcerer having a wand of magic missile, because it'll mean she can use her spells to heal the fighters, and they can keep the bad guys off of me. But when the other players started forgetting that the sorcerer was simply shooting magic missiles off her wand and accusing me of mismanaging my character because I was the only one "running out of spells," I got defensive. And annoyed. And angry.
And I think the three factor in to me being super mad. If I wasn't defensive, I wouldn't be angry. But when you start telling me I'm playing my character badly, it just... GRRRR! Even the GM was like, "Here's a thought, you could shoot your crossbow more". And I'm thinking – that shows how much you pay attention – I don’t have a crossbow! I have daggers! Which I lose constantly, because I'm – surprise, surprise – throwing them! Does no one remember this? Apparently not. Nor do they remember that before we got those wands, it was the sorcerer who was running out of spells, not me.
So, anyway. Rant over. I think I'm going to say something before game this week. Or maybe make a policy that I won't cast a spell unless the sorcerer does. Just to see if anyone notices.
And if you made it through all that, congratulations! And I'm sorry for ranting, I just needed to get it off my chest.